• 9/11
• Bush v Gore
• GWB re-election (despite war, recession, etc.)
• Trump election
• COVID

All chipped away at notions of stability, fairness, and sanity.

Still have hope, but tend not to believe the hype so much.

Ohh, the lockdowns showed me how all of you motherfuckers really are. It was VERY enlightening.

2016 US elections was a ridiculously sobering moment for realizing that we had not progressed nearly to the extent that I nievely thought.

Losing my best friend / business partner. He died in March. A lot of things stopped making sense after that.

Being treated for cancer in hospital (in remission now, thank you) during COVID lockdowns gave me lots of time to reflect on my life. Realised that probably I was the asshole all these years; and also came to the realisation that I’m autistic and socially awkward. Reading David Graeber’s Bullshit Jobs helped me to understand all the corporate games and garbage that I’d been part of for most of my career.

When I think about my life, it’s divided into pre-cancer diagnosis, selfish workaholic and part of corporate life; and post-cancer remission, unemployed, living off my savings, kinder to the people and the world, but unable to find a job that resonates with the new me.

Once computers went online. It was fascinating to experience in real time.

I’ll throw one out for COVID, but not just the lockdowns or the immediate work changes. It was more about how the deaths kept happening. And happening. And happening. Yet people still failed to take it seriously, even to the point of rebelling against seemingly common-sense safeguards like vaccines, masking, and staying the fuck home.

In the US, we lived through about 4 years of shenanigans and bullshit and lies from an incompetent federal government leading up to the pandemic. But surely that wouldn’t fly for long. You can lie about the number of people at a rally (because who the fuck cares), you can apparently lie about where a hurricane is projected to go (because it’s jUsT a PrOjEcTiOn or something), but surely you can’t bullshit your way out of a pandemic. Hospitals at capacity. Bodies piling up. Loved ones lost. Visible, real, tangible impacts of poor leadership and poor decisionmaking.

But, turns out you can. Even in the most dire of circumstances, you can still convince people that reality isn’t real. Or even if it is, it doesn’t really matter and it’s not their problem. And there are enough people out there who will buy into that message that it will ruin things for everyone else.

Edit: To the original point of the question… I guess I had a little more faith in humanity before all that happened. More faith that real-world consequences would win out against rhetorical bullshit and tribalism.

I got glasses. That definitely changed the way I saw things. Everything suddenly became more focused.

For me it was when I was watching Soul with some friends and eventually came to some emotional realizations. I realized that I only had a superficial understanding of how to communicate. I could discuss ideas in the abstract, but I had trouble with expressing myself emotionally and personally because I was always conditioned to repress how I feel. I guess like 22 in the movie I only saw myself as a casual observer. It took a couple rewatches for me to process the difficult emotions I was feeling into something I could explain but when I did it really helped my overall mental outlook on life.

The left wing party of Australian federal politics decided that treating refugees inhumanly was acceptable.

That moment changed how I view politics and how I view people. It made me realise just how irrelevant empathy for others was in most public and political discourse. It made me more cynical about “the system”, changed the way I voted, and transformed the face of my own advocacy to put empathy for others at the forefront.

2016 elections and then covid. Now nazis rising to power again.

COVID. Really never understood before how little of a shit the U.S. government has for its people. But they straight up let us fucking die while telling teenagers they needed to get back to work for minimum wage so they could get their shit Mcdildos and mochafuckaccinos and add gold spinning rims to their yachts. I can’t wait until these old fucks start dying off, I don’t care what political leanings they claim to have, we need a fuckin overhaul.

The whole “the world will end in 2012” hysteria back then. It was my first glimpse into conspiracy theories, which I’ve spent a lot of time learning about ever since. It made me realize that nothing is ever too idiotic to not have an alarming number of people fall for it. It’s why I wasn’t surprised by the rise of the Q-movement or the resistance against the absolute bare minimum of COVID measures because of microchips in vaccines etc. All of that were just yet additional “of course people believe that shit”-moments for me.

Like Tommy Lee Jones said in Men in Black “A person is smart - people are dumb, panicky, dangerous animals.”

I haven’t been surprised by how stupid people can be in a long time.