I am not from USA but in my opinion it would be better to have money in emergency… but thats just my opinion.

I searched for life advice in 30s on youtube and all the videos recommended to me after I watched two videos were about “life changing experience” to “Things to do before turning 30” Videos and still recommended to me.

I think it is because people search for the current issue and suddenly you get tons and tons of relevant videos recommended and they don’t go away.

It works the other way to though, if you suddenly start watching fitness videos suddenly all you do is watch fitness videos and believe me from there it ain’t far to the protein, carb etc. videos and then it starts mixing up your previous searches “depression” with “fitness” and you landed by the wonderful Tate.

Which is why my video feed is screwed up in an interesting way and my brain doesn’t know if it is fine or not. I have Starcraft Videos popping up next to Asmongold, ThatWasEpic, MarkManson and mixed in with random nonames how they got no friends and struggle in life and the next video is someone who tells me to go to the gym at 5 in the morning because thats what machines do.

I think these feeds can make people feel certain ways and if you are feeling bad you are most likely gonna watch something that is about feeling depressed.

Hm weird, I left religion and now I am labeled as “Konfessionslos”. Dont pay anything to a church or anything that has to do with this fairytale story.

In my country we have “Konfessionslos” -> non-denominational.

Autumn really does have an intoxicating allure, doesn’t it? Those foggy mornings wrap everything in a thick blanket of mystery, where the world feels muted and hushed. As the sun sinks lower, the shadows stretch and twist, creating dark corners that seem to hold secrets—and maybe something more sinister.

When the nights grow longer, there’s an electric tension in the air, a feeling that something is lurking just out of sight. The leaves crunch beneath your feet, each step echoing like a heartbeat, while the lake lies still, a dark mirror that reflects not just the fading light, but the whispers of things that hide in the depths.

As the chill settles in, it’s easy to imagine figures moving just beyond your vision, lurking in the fog. The beauty of the season mingles with a creeping sense of unease, as if the very air is thick with stories waiting to unfold—tales of things that thrive in the dark, where the line between the living and the shadows blurs. Isn’t it fascinating how autumn invites that darker side to play?

It’s the small things that start meaning a lot.

I work nightshift and last year I had nightshift from 22nd Dec to I think 28th Dec (7 nightshifts) I do it for the money and so I am off longer til 10th January.

I always wear my christmas sweater to work and before I go to my nightshifts I stop at the bakery. I am 30 and this lady, I assume around 26-28 commented on my sweat “Hey you look good!”.

I am not searching for a girlfriend because I have a wife lol but this still somehow felt nice. My wife also comments on how good it looks etc. but when strangers comment on that it’s still kind of different.

I grabbed my coffee2go, sat in my car, called my wife and told her a young lady hit on me but eventhough I am old asf (31 lol) and she laughed and wished me a good nightshift.

When my wife and I go on vacation to italy and a car that is still with you after 3 hours drives is also nice. The last time the car behind flashed his headlights 4-5 times before he left our highway and waved. I waved back. We never saw us again.

We have dogs, take care and walk a lot, Series, most of the time cook, yard,… we built a house this year. Short Trips to cities, we do a lot together (,imo) but nothing Routine like Tennis or Sport. She doesnt play Video games, I play them on high level (if Starcraft says anything Im high masters), I watch many streams and Listen to msny podcasts. She has no interest in any of it.

I have no idea what she does when I play Video games but whenever I play an hour and get a coffee I see her sleeping ob the Couch with this garden tv show on lol. I think she has no real hobbies and relies on my day plans

Well land next to a loud church.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P2yc_U2Chlw

Currently a lot of stoner rock but going on vacation - if my flight doesn’t get canceled, Lufthansa is preparing for protesting - if my flight isn’t canceled I am changing back to reggae lol.

Well when my friends and I go out to the “city” by train we go to the irish pub and we do notice the same crowd sitting at the counter. A few different folks from the close hostels but other than that it’s really the same.

We actually only go once a year now when the christmas markets open up because of “It’s always the same” feeling and we can just drink in our local bars.

I don’t even know what I should write… like come on, what the…

Like if I wasn’t lucky those could have been my parents.

That sounds cool.

Stupid question but do you think you have a good “deep” sleep if you have many lucid dreams? I always thought having lucid dreams was when people are kind of asleep but not really asleep - you know what I mean?

I for example had lucid dreams if I get out of bed to go to the toilet at night and go back to bed for an hour or if I set my alarm one hour before waking up and hit snooze.

TV will be opposite of window mounted to the wall

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Well the room is perfectly made for where the sofa is and where the TV will be mounted on (wall).

The window I can completly darken by letting down the electronic shades. Same goes for the huge door window, has raffstores outside I can let down and get the room to about I’d say 85% darkness during day. I don’t get any sunlight into the living room because of the roof of the terrace but I get a lot of indirect light into the room.

So basically my room can’t be hit by sunlight…

Moment I have a picture. But now outside there is a roof… because this pic is a year old.

Yeah probably keeping my currently well running 2011 TV in the basement lol.

Not giving a single F about anything.

I wish I could return to the state I was during pre birth. I have been given a small time frame of giving f’s though until I will return to that state I desire to be in.

In about 50 years if nothing out of my control wipes me out I will return to being non existent.

Thinking about this makes me wonder, I havent given a single f since the big bang and now I am thrown on to a globe and a large handful of people passively forcing me to do. I have to be. I never had the option to not be. Lets see where this goes

Yeah I could always use more money but I am secure enough to pay my debt (house) regulary and save money and go on vacations.

Wow that is a thing. Thanks!

Wow I remember painting my Zombicide Minis lol.

Lol.