JohnBrownsBussy2 [she/her, they/them]

I have now lost two handheld mirrors in the past week from trying to hang them in the shower with suction cup hooks.

No, I was worried that if I started before that there might be changes that would be difficult to hide.

I was dragging my feet, fretting about insurance and starting HRT before visiting my parents this Christmas, but I decided that it’s time to schedule an appointment for an HRT consult. It’s on the 18th!

Damn, the period right after federation went active was so good for posting.

I know that I helped get us de-fedded from pawb by making a version of the Grover (of Groverhaus game) Iraq war copypasta in reference to Blahaj Zone. I’m sure there were other incidents, but I remember that my post was cited specifically.

Finally found the time to do some of the thrifting I wanted to do. I got some women’s jeans to try on (hopefully they fit. If not, I’ll at least know how to size up/down) as well as some jewelry.

In an not particularly gender related note, also picked up a print copy of the Borealis Connection campaign for The Fall of Delta Green trpg. Not sure if I would want to run it with the FoDG Gumshoe system (which is fiddly but neat) or with the regular d100 Delta Green system, but this sort of late 60s conspiracy thriller is something that I’ve wanted to run for a while.

So, now that it’s been a couple weeks since initially shaping my eyebrows (and overall I happy with them), I am being plagued by hairs regrowing in the plucked area. I don’t mind replucking them, but when they’re so small it’s difficult to get a grip on them, and they make my eyebrows look bushier than they are do to the color even if they don’t contribute any volume per say. Should I just use an eyebrow razor and deal with them via shaving, or should I just pluck them as they get long enough to repluck?

Well, no one noticed or commented that I was wearing makeup (concealer & foundation) to work/presentations, so I am going to make that a regular thing (at least for days where I don’t have a ton of lab work that could ruin it).

Thesis defended. Am now Dr. Gay.

Got my epilator. The pain is significantly less than manual tweezing, so not bad at all. It’s a cheaper one, so it needs to be plugged in and is a bit tough to clean, but I have been able to clear up my arms and hands at least.

EDIT: Also, when I use my cats come over and just watch me with concern. It’s very cute.

Sometimes I have a hard time applying the word woman to myself, but every time I think of the word daughter it almost brings me to the verge of tears because I want that so bad and I’m probably never going to get it.

Yeah, I feel the same.

I don’t have an epilator yet, but I spent some time with a tweezer plucking hairs on my hand and wrist. For those with epilators, how bad does it hurt compared to tweezing manually (which doesn’t hurt too bad).

Bought a door-hanging mirror so I could properly evaluate outfits, and the cats are immediately messing with it.

Another inspiration for the punk outfit is that I was looking on Amazon for a choker that would fit me without an extender, and I found a set of studded ones with matching bracelets, so that’s accounted for. For jewelry, where do you look/shop for that sort of stuff? As for earrings, I need to find a time to get my ears pierced by a reputable piercer, but I am also job hunting soon so I may wait a bit on that.

Customizing clothes sounds really fun! Will need to look into that.

Well, I have this (thrift shopped) black leather jacket. I was inspired by Vera Drew’s outfit in this video (invidious link), and I was thinking of the same sort of mesh/fishnet shirt. I believe the tee is from Das Bootleg, so I could do that or another top. Would be fun to wear the mesh shirt over a brassiere or crop top, but I don’t think I can pull it off right now due to belly fat. For the bottom, I was thinking cut-off black shorts (either denim or canvas) or a skirt. I have a skirt, and for the black shorts it should be easy enough to find either some shorts or pants to cut down. For shoes, it’d have to be some sort of black boots. Then I guess it’s figuring out accessories.

Looking at that, idk how goth/punk that actually is. Laying it out, it certainly doesn’t seem super ostentatious, but I also don’t want to spend a ton of money since I am working on loosing weight anyways.

Aside: I almost got a mesh shirt a couple years ago when I put together a Harry Dubois cosplay for Halloween. In the future, Rule 63 Harry is a going to be fun. I still have the faux snake-skin heels for it.

Initial consult for my therapist went well! We scheduled a follow-up, and I am looking forward to it!

I also got a bra that fits. The cup is a bit big, but I have some sort of mastia due to my weight so I should be able to fill it out with some inserts. Idk how things are going to go as I lose weight/start HRT, but it’s affirming for now. With that, I am working on assembling another outfit. I want to try something goth/punk. I will try to figure out some normal femme clothes eventually, but if it’s in private for now then I might as well have fun as a baby trans. I also want to go to some metal shows again and it would be nice to not seem like a square.