I’ve also remained a Christian in spite of evangelicals. I think the worst dredges of those kinda people are really only focused on having more and looking better than others, so we’re back to the zero sum game. They don’t want to change to better reflect the Jesus we can read about in the Bible, they just wanna be garbage during the week and go spend an hour or two on Sunday mornings listening to someone tell them that they’re okay and that God loves them. Not enough pastors have the stones to tell their congregants that sure, God loves them, but that’s not a license to be a real prick to everybody they view as “lesser” than them. Maybe someday the voices behind the pulpit will grow a spine and call for accountability, but they definitely aren’t saying it loud enough
You aren’t the only one feeling that way, just put yourself in a position to meet others. Start going to meetups of things that interest you, or, at the very least, engage with others on things that interest them and you’ll usually find common ground eventually. It can feel difficult and awkward, but everybody struggles with that when they first start to put themselves out there. Just persevere, you’ll find people.