This shit coming out about Pink News just reminds me of the long history of cissies throwing trans people under the bus (CW: transphobia). Fuck assimilationists.

37 days of giving a shit, 22 pounds down. Got through a major bit of work drama without going back to eating, feels extra nice to cross that 300 pound barrier today. Went on a day trip down to DC and stopped counting but still didn’t go wild, sorta feeling like I’m not looking for as large of meals now too. Didn’t hurt that the trip down to DC had us do >20k steps through the day so any extra snacks were sorta paid for. This coming week might be rough without someone else in the house to keep me accountable, but I prepped with easier stuff to make so I’m ready to keep going for it.

It’s been 20 days of giving a shit again and minding what I eat. I think it’s also helping my mother a bit be less blasé about her own eating and health. I’m down either 8 or 16 pounds if you count my first weigh in as the night before or the first morning since I lost like 8 pounds in a day according to the scale.

Still been a struggle though especially as work drama has been making me want to stop caring but I’m worth more than that drama.

For some reason that I’m not sure of myself this was the week that finally hit right and I felt like I should start caring for myself again rather than just not giving a fuck and hoping I die in a few years as a result. Last time I gave a shit was probably 2019 but after getting fired and COVID and everything I just haven’t cared. I hope maybe I can keep this up for a bit and also help my mother with it as well since we’ve both been bad influences on each other for a while now.

I’ve gone a solid 5 days now limiting how much I eat to 2k calories when I’m pretty sure I normally average around 3k. Today I even stopped myself from just ordering out and rationalizing that it was probably close to my allotment left for the day. Today was more of a struggle though since I started getting lightheaded and ravenously hungry so I allowed myself a bit of chocolate and that helped me last until dinner.