idk how much it helps coming from someone going the other way but i found that a lot of my opinions on my body pretty rapidly changed after changing my gender identity. At first, I was pretty dead set on taking the no op route but literally the morning of my first HRT appointment I suddenly had second thoughts and now I’m tossed up between an orchi and SRS. Idk how far along you are but a lot of thoughts about myself have been pretty rapidly changing in the last 3 months. I wouldn’t be surprised if you felt the same