The photo is a 1974 photo of Leslie Feinberg, from the FBI file on hir. I’ve written a piece on my interpretation of Transgender Warriors and Trans Liberation, but I don’t think it’s quite polished enough, so I’ll post it later. Instead, I’ll go over hir FBI file: https://s3.amazonaws.com/NARAprodstorage/lz/dc-metro/rg-065/6282555/Batch0010/6282555_100-HQ-480756.PDF.

The FBI thought Feinberg could be violating the Communist Control Act, advocating the overthrow of the government, and engaging in rebellion. Needless to say, a hero to all of us. Feinberg was a member of the Workers World Party (the party still exists, but more notably PSL split from it), which apparently wasn’t openly advocating for the overthrow of the U.S, they just think it’s inevitable.

My favorite line? “captioned subject is believed to be a white female, who became male through some kind of sex change operation, and is possibly homosexual”. Some interesting language choice, and it’s an interesting snapshot into the evolution of Leslie’s identity.

The FBI found Leslie’s place of birth and birthdate from public school records. It’s a bit of an interesting look into all of the many places the FBI can get their information, along with how information like that was so much more patchwork before the digital age.

“Interview of subject is not being recommended because of the questionable nature of his sexuality”. Hmm, interesting.

It’s interesting how their investigation spanned multiple cities, from Kansas City to NYC to Bufffalo to Boston. It probably involved quite a few officers, though I’m sure it wasn’t the main focus for all of them.

There’s some interesting mention about changes in Leslie’s gender identity. Born a girl, for a time wearing a beard and mustache, then going back to “she”. I’m sure we all know, Feinberg’s gender didn’t stop evolving there.

“Subject reportedly contributes all extra money to WWP”, Leslie definitely was dedicated to the cause. Leslie doesn’t attend NYC WWP meetings, but the FBI doesn’t mention why.

The FBI isn’t immune to typoes, Leslie did some “criminal terspass” that garnered some attention.They wasted some time checking if Leslie was in Boston, but verified where Leslie in NYC lived by pretending to be a part of the Voter Registration Commission.

There’s a whole 43 pages of documents, all just from 1974-75. There’s plenty of interesting tidbits in there, so maybe check it out.

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  • ashinadash [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
    16·
    2 months ago
    chronic pain, body

    Welp! yea I’m finally at the point where sans prescription painkillers, it is pretty painful to get up from sitting. Me when my fleshform is failing me.

    That’s okay, body, I still love you. Sucks you’ll probably become fully useless before I’m 30 but we’ll keep at it. Altering your flesh to make it something you really like, and then having it ruined by chronic pain, that’s some kind of cosmic joke.

    More and more it’s not just the sternum, random portions of my entire torso are screaming in pain. My strength is fading ✨

      • ashinadash [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
        11·
        2 months ago

        meow-hug

        It mostly bugs me that it keeps getting worse, I could deal with it if it were consistent but I seem to be actively wasting away…

        • imogen_underscore [it/its, she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
          11·
          2 months ago

          I feel that. mine waxes and wanes but long term I think I’m on the same trajectory. the annoying thing for me is that it’s still unsolved>:3 weed helps a lot for me, but it’s expensive where I live and dependency is a fuck.

          • ashinadash [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
            10·
            2 months ago

            I need to get dudeweed but I’m too spooked to go into a dispensary and be like “hey my corpse is rotting can your funny plants help?” basil-anxious-smile

            I’m already so dependant on various meds so lol, fwiw

            • imogen_underscore [it/its, she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
              8·
              2 months ago

              I probably should… I have a lot of chest and back pain that feels deep, like my bones or the stuff that binds them together is hurting. my GP thinks it’s costochondritis, but that doesn’t really explain the back and neck pain. unfortunately with the healthcare system in my country it can be challenging, expensive, or a long wait to see specialists. but I should look into it, thank you for the advice.

              • magi [null/void]@hexbear.netMEnglish
                8·
                2 months ago

                Fibro is one that i’ve heard a few other trans and non binary people suffer with, my mother and sister had it too. It’s also incurable so sucks and I push through that with exercise which can help, but I have it in a few spots, my lower back, my hips, knees and neck. I have some tendon issues too. I only take over the counter pain relief and go without on most days unless I get a flare up like this morning where I’m stiff and have a bit of trouble walking without slight limping and need time to loosen up

                • imogen_underscore [it/its, she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
                  6·
                  2 months ago

                  doc gave me some antibiotics and anti-inflammatories a while ago, unfortunately didn’t really see any progress with them. regular painkillers don’t seem to have much of an effect on the deep pains in my chest and back, i can get codeine+ibuprofen OTC here but i try not to build a reliance on it. GP visits are 60 euro a pop where i live so i just put them off until i have a list of complaints long enough that i feel i can justify the cost. as a result progress on any long-term issue is very slow. i should really push for a specialist referral next time i go though. sadness

                  • ashinadash [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
                    6·
                    2 months ago

                    yea That sucks and I relate 100%. I can’t get like Tylenol3 otc here but I standardised on a low dose of tramadol, lmao. This shit sucks…

    • GenderIsOpSec [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
      8·
      2 months ago
      spoiler

      chronic pain sucks, i’m sorry meow-hug

      i dont have anything that awful, but both of my achilles tendons are fucked enough that I can’t run anymore, and i used to run ultra-marathons lea-sad but atleast i can exist without constant painkillers

      hope things can get better for you cat-trans

      • ashinadash [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
        8·
        2 months ago
        spoiler

        Trans people and chronic pain… more iconic duo? Maybe any neurodiversity and chronic pain lol madeline-sadeline Fwiw wrecked achilles tendons does not sound fun either.

        Thank you cat-trans

    • lilypad [she/her, null/void]@hexbear.netEnglish
      8·
      2 months ago
      spoiler

      Im so sorry your fleshform is failing you

      I hope your sternum and torso quiet down a little as the day goes on cuddle

      maybe unwanted resourcey thing?
      Youve probably got everything managed as best it can be, but if youre wanting resources,

      My auntie lives with chronic pain, and was talking about the book “from ow to wow: thriving with pain” a while back. Idk, they said it helped them, i just thought i would mention it. (Im sorry, if this is unhelpful or pretentious or telling you how to manage your own experience please tell me and ill pull the comment down; youre your own expert).

      • ashinadash [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
        7·
        2 months ago
        spoiler

        yea The painkillers do help, they’re Evil Opioids but they do keep me moving at least. Wifey says it could be the weather too…

        If my shit ever stabilises and I stop actively falling apart, books like this one may actually be useful. I could look at my daily habits and such…

        • lilypad [she/her, null/void]@hexbear.netEnglish
          8·
          2 months ago
          spoiler

          Even if theyre evil, im glad they help cuddle

          Weather could absolutely be part of it as well. I dont even have any artificial joints but when the pressure changes rapidly my joints hurt lol.

          Also just like sternum pain in particular really sucks. I remember when I seperated my sternum, that was one of the most painful injuries i ever had, because you cant just not use your sternum. Dislocated shoulder? Fine, just dont use that arm. But the sternum is super integral! Im sorry it gives you so much trouble.

          my shit ever stabilises and I stop actively falling apart […]

          I hope it does! Care-Comrade

          • ashinadash [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
            8·
            2 months ago
            spoiler

            WHAT THE FUCK YOU CAN SEPERATE YOUR STERNUM??? nia-you-what Jesus christ that’s so fucked!!! You wouldn’t be able to move nearly!!!

            But yeah sternum is connected to uh, both arms, your spine indirectly, collarbones and stuff. Basically your whole upper body, pretty catastrophic failure point…

            meow-hug

            • lilypad [she/her, null/void]@hexbear.netEnglish
              8·
              2 months ago
              spoiler

              WHAT THE FUCK YOU CAN SEPERATE YOUR STERNUM???

              yea the sternum is actually 3 plates held together by connective tissue. I actually seperated it because my chin impacted it (side note, spines should not bend like that, im lucky nothing worse happened in that fall). My connective tissues in my body are made super poorly/are filthy removed, so im at high risk of dislocations, separations, etc. I almost always have a rib out (its one specific rib that hates me), and can often crack my back by pressing on my sternum. Somtimes my body just feels like not being held together anymore i guess emilie-shrug

              • ashinadash [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
                7·
                2 months ago
                spoiler

                sadness-abysmal I did not know you could seperate them though… I thought you would just die Idk…

                Glad nothing worse happened, that’s a really curious and kind of unfunny condition though. Does the rib hurt a ton when it’s out?

                • lilypad [she/her, null/void]@hexbear.netEnglish
                  7·
                  2 months ago
                  spoiler

                  Does the rib hurt a ton when it’s out?

                  I guess? Idk im used to it by now. Its mostly just when i move that it hurts, like walking around, standing up and sitting down, etc. so if i just stay still its only uncomfortable. My life is literally that bad doctor joke sometimes lol.

                  Its been going out a lot less ever since i got a very firm mattress, but of course now my shoulders are angry at me because of it. just cant win ig.

                  bad doctor joke

                  A guy goes to the doctor, and the doctor asks him “ok, so whats the issue here?”. The guy raises his arm up a little bit in front of him and says “doc, it really hurts when i do this” the doctor looks at him a moment and says “then dont do that. NEXT PATIENT”

                  • ashinadash [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
                    7·
                    2 months ago
                    spoiler

                    “Well don’t do that” lol. You have to to to a hospital or something to get it reset though? A thousand curses upon your rib for doing this. Angry shoulders sounds less bad than dislocated rib at least?

                    LMAO CALLED IT agony-shivering