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Toyosatomimi no Miko is a character in the Touhou Project series introduced in its 13th installment, Ten Desires.

Miko was once Prince Shoutoku, a Japanese leader in the 600s known for promoting Buddhism and streamlining the Japanese government. In the Touhou lore, she was visited by Taoist hermit Seiga Kaku, who had heard about Miko’s longing for immortality. Seiga introduced her to Taoism, but she rejected it as a religion unfit for placating an entire country. She was intrigued by its promise of immortality, however, and privately converted to it, advocating for Buddhism to keep Japan stable. After drinking an “immortality elixir” (mercury sulfide), however, she was forced to let go of her body and become a supernatural hermit like Seiga, notably taking on the form of a woman, making her a canonically trans character (lets-fucking-go).

After convincing a hermit from a rival clan (Mononobe no Futo) to sleep without decaying, Miko followed in suit, waiting for a time where a Taoist Japan would revive her in search of guidance. However, Buddhist monks were able to keep her mausoleum sealed, and the legends surrounding her were slowly brushed off- which led to her transportation into Gensokyo, where the folklore of old is a reality of everyday life.

When she awoke in Gensokyo, it was right after Buddhist monk Byakuren Hijiri opened her own temple, however, leading to a surge of divine spirits across the realm, setting up the events of Ten Desires.

What look like headphones on her are canonically earmuffs- Shoutoku was allegedly able to discern between ten questions asked at once, an ability carried by Miko (although with her enhanced abilities, she can also analyze each person and determine their inner desires (thus the title of the game))- although it means her hearing is highly sensitive and has to be muffled to prevent pain.

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  • nemmybun [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
    10·
    2 months ago
    Fantasizing about kink lately CW: kink, injury/harm, horny

    Disclaimer: My actual experience is limited and while I’ve read some stuff, I am no expert. I apologize ahead of time if I say anything problematic. Do point it out if you see something so I can learn.

    Starting with dom stuff:

    • Orgasm denial (:volcel-kamala:). I like that there’s a required intimacy for this. I need to have a deep understanding and awareness of a partner’s body and expressions to successful interrupt an orgasm. When I do, I get to watch the light fade from their eyes and frustration set in knowing their pleasure is in my hands. Then I can gently remind them who is in control and that they will not know completion except through me. Then after a cool-off period, and if they’ve been good and begged enough then they can be obliged. And that can be finished off with a “good [affirming noun]” and a gentle caress and watch them melt.
    • Pet play is big in trans spaces and when I learned about it when I was first transitioning, I thought it would be fun to be a pet. Honestly there’s like a lot of propaganda towards that way so it’s easy to get sucked in. These days I feel like I’d be more comfortable tugging the chain instead. Not 100% sure what to do with a pet if I had one though since I’ve never been on either side before.
    • An obedient sub sounds great but I think I’d like the take on challenge of brat taming. Going through the work of making them submit feels like it’s more earned. More dominant. And I feel like the connection is stronger by breaking someone over just having someone passively submit.
    • This next one is definitely fully in the realm of fantasy, but I guess this is kinda like an extreme version of brat taming. Fighting, like actually dangerous and deadly fighting with weapons and then fucking afterwards. I guess that’s just klingon sex. Anyway I’ve had makeup sex before and that was intense so this has to be like… really fucking intense right??

    And on the subby side:

    • Also regulated to forever fantasy: being bound and threatened with a knife. Being cut or stabbed too. Like I don’t actually want to be injured and I don’t think I could trust anyone enough for any kind of edge play, even if there was no cutting and it was just threatening. Really though. Why do I want this even in the safety of fantasy??
    • Even though I said I’d prefer the chain, I wouldn’t mind trying the collar just to see what it’s like… crush
    • Ropes/shibari. Honestly a lot of the sub stuff I’m interested in is hard for me to seek due out to the amount of trust required. But it’s still hot to think about. Being bound and helpless. Being tied up in an artistic way and being reduced to an art object to be admired and consumed. Maybe paired with…
    • Sensory deprivation. Remove as many senses as possible except the sense of touch. Every little brush of a feather, every drop of warm wax, every wet trail left by ice, every breath on my neck, every soft kiss on my skin, all of it amplified due to my hyperfocus being completely directed towards the sensation of touch.
    • lilypad [she/her, null/void]@hexbear.netEnglish
      9·
      2 months ago
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      GOOD post ^^

      Orgasm denial

      I like the idea of this (from the subby side lol) but i feel like its out of my purview; its so hard for me to reach orgasm anyway (like, 2+ hours of fun before i can get there) that i feel like someone Domming me would get really frustrated with my inability to get there and when I did them stopping it would mean even more work for them.

      Pet play

      I get anxious with this one too. Everyone i know equates this with pup play(edit: when theres so much more than that), which im not really into. Like, i enjoy the individual elements but not the pup part of it (edit: could enjoy other things tho? Idk thats one for me to ruminate on). Like a leash and collar is really fun, being commanded and directed is really fun, hell, being trained is really fun, and even being made to act like a dog, but because of the humiliation/pleasing my Domme, idk.

      brat taming & fighting

      This is one of those things that sounds really interesting but ive never fully understood. Like, i like pushing back and being a little provocative, earning a slap or two, but not fighting with whoevers Domming me.

      knifeplay

      Kifeplay is one of those things I go back and forth on between “that sounds kinda interesting, but maybe just an act-in fantasy, not an act-out fantasy” and “oh dear god that scares the shit out of me and not in a fun kinky way”.

      Really though. Why do I want this even in the safety of fantasy??

      I mean, fantasies dont have to make sense. Ive got a specific fantasy that scares the shit out of me, and i will never pursue, and i dont like thinking of, but it still gets me going sometimes.

      Ropes/shibari

      Ok i know im biased here cause I love ropes and ropeplay, but this is so fun! Like i love just being bound, gagged, helpless, and at the mercy of my Domme… Being made pretty and beautiful with rope. And pairing it with impact play just makes me and my body so happy ^^ I love the marks and bruises and everything that comes along with it, the reminders when I try to sit down the next day…

      sensory deprivation

      This one ive only done a couple times, but its been really fun! I want to try wax, starting with soy and moving to parafin if/when im ready ^^

      Thanks for the good post, i enjoy having people to talk to about this stuff ^^

      • nemmybun [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
        6·
        2 months ago
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        Orgasm denial

        Yeah I have a hard time with reaching orgasm too. Less so when solo but with others I usually don’t more often than I do. I don’t think I would get frustrated with someone for that personally but that’s easy to say from someone with no experience I guess

        Pet play

        I feel like any kink can be deconstructed and if someone don’t mesh with parts of the kink archetype, those parts can be negotiated out. It sounds like you like a lot about it so maybe it’s just coming up with your own version to work with

        brat taming

        This is all coming from my imagination. But I feel if I take on the role as a brat, I’d be testing the domme, to see if they’re worthy. If they can’t control me, then what business do they have domming me? I guess this turns the dynamic into a battle of wills instead of command/obey.

        maybe just an act-in fantasy, not an act-out fantasy

        What does this mean? Like inside your head vs actually doing it?

        Being made pretty and beautiful with rope.

        That’s a good way of putting it.

        I love the marks and bruises and everything that comes along with it, the reminders when I try to sit down the next day…

        sicko-lea

        I want to try wax, starting with soy and moving to parafin if/when im ready ^^

        Waxplay is one of the only kinks I’ve actually done, and I did parafin. I didn’t think it was too bad but this was also before I transitioned so my skin might be more sensitive now

        i enjoy having people to talk to about this stuff ^^

        Yeah it’s fun! Thanks for sharing your own thoughts

        • lilypad [she/her, null/void]@hexbear.netEnglish
          7·
          2 months ago
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          I don’t think I would get frustrated with someone for that

          Im probably just being my overly-anxious self lol. Ive never tried to engage with this kink so lack of experience over here as well ^^

          sounds like you like a lot about it so maybe it’s just coming up with your own version to work with

          lea-think hmm maybe thats something to consider… Idk i dont even have a play partner right now (trust is hard sadness)

          If they can’t control me, then what business do they have domming me

          That makes sense ^^ idk its not my thing but i love hearing about it and what makes it appealing, and i think that sentence made it make (more) sense ^^

          Re act-in/-out:

          yeah, act-in fantasies are fantasies i dont want to actually play out. I might fantasize about them, write about them, etc., but i dont actually want to engage in them, either due to safety concerns or what have you. I have a fantasy about uh nonconsentual stuff that is strictly act in because it would be unsafe and just not enjoyable if it was acted out. Im also just still grappling with that fantasy existing in my head, the shame around it, and all of that.

          Act out fantasies on the other hand are fantasies I want to act out and engage in ^^

          One that toes the line between these two is a Domme having me collared and at her feet and putting out her cigarette on me. I feel like it is interacting with my SH mental processes and so Im reluctant to engage with it, plus it would scar which is something I may want in the moment but need to also want outside of the moment. So for now its an act in fantasy.

          sicko-lea

          I didnt know we had this emote and it is perfect for this conversation ^^

          Re safety: i tend to err on the side of safety. My body is not stable and can get fucked up in a “oh we should go to the hospital” kind of a way a bit easier than most people, so i can get real paranoid about people binding near my joints, or whipping me near cartilidge or connective tissues. Its led to a difficult session or two where the flogger wasnt fully controlled. Thankfully no injuries occurred but still a good reminder of risk awareness for me.

          Waxplay is one of the only kinks I’ve actually done, and I did parafin. I didn’t think it was too bad but this was also before I transitioned so my skin might be more sensitive now

          Ooh maybe I could ask about this (no pressure to respond!)

          Like, how was the parafin? I have a pretty high tolerance for burning, especially if its combined with other sensation, but i was thinking to start with soy cause of anxiety around biting off more than I can chew.

          Also, can you just use any candle?

          Yeah it’s fun! Thanks for sharing your own thoughts

          Ofc! aubrey-happy

          • nemmybun [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
            6·
            2 months ago
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            Idk i dont even have a play partner right now (trust is hard sadness)

            Feel this aubrey-sad

            i think that sentence made it make (more) sense ^^

            I’m glad it did, hopefully my imagination isn’t misleading about it lol

            I have a fantasy about uh nonconsentual stuff that is strictly act in because it would be unsafe and just not enjoyable if it was acted out. Im also just still grappling with that fantasy existing in my head, the shame around it, and all of that.

            Oh yeah. I’ve definitely had thoughts like that before. Though personally I guess I didn’t think of it as a fantasy but more of an unwanted intrusive thought. Maybe it’s the same thing in this case.

            The example makes sense. I can see how things that are desirable in the moment can be regrettable later.

            My body is not stable and can get fucked up in a “oh we should go to the hospital” kind of a way a bit easier than most people, so i can get real paranoid about people binding near my joints, or whipping me near cartilidge or connective tissues.

            Oh wow that’s rough. Sorry if this is prying but is that some sort of HSD? My partner has EDS and their body has similar problems with joint and connective tissues

            Like, how was the parafin? I have a pretty high tolerance for burning, especially if its combined with other sensation, but i was thinking to start with soy cause of anxiety around biting off more than I can chew.

            Paraffin didn’t really bother me (pre-HRT so thicker skin) but if it is too hot, it’s also possible to alter the temperature of the wax just by adjusting the drip height. I didn’t have a problem from even close up though. I’ve never used soy so I can’t comment on how that feels but I’ve read that it’s oily? Paraffin clean up is a pain already, I can’t imagine the mess from soy candles.

            Also, can you just use any candle?

            Nope! Don’t use beeswax, it gets too hot and it can burn or blister.

            • lilypad [she/her, null/void]@hexbear.netEnglish
              6·
              2 months ago
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              Oh wow that’s rough. Sorry if this is prying but is that some sort of HSD? My partner has EDS and their body has similar problems with joint and connective tissues

              Its just hypermobility to my knoweledge, but I havent been to a doctor for it in many many years, so who knows. Short version is that I can dislocate things real easy, and in general have shitty connective tissues holding joints in place.

              Nope! Don’t use beeswax, it gets too hot and it can burn or blister.

              Ty!

    • magi [null/void]@hexbear.netMEnglish
      8·
      2 months ago
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      Even though I said I’d prefer the chain, I wouldn’t mind trying the collar just to see what it’s like

      Compete over who holds the chain while both of you have a collar on, biting and scratching, anything goes.

      Good post c: was expecting more like Ash has said screm-cool

    • ashinadash [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
      7·
      2 months ago
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      The knife one gave me a sensible chuckle, had a dream like that once. Also I def recommend collars.

      Good hornypost, I was expecting a lot more awooga from this given how hesitant you were, lol

      • nemmybun [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
        7·
        2 months ago
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        Collars seem to be a universal recc.

        Yeah I probably accidently oversold the :awooga: factor by making a tease. Even at my best I still have trouble with vulnerability but I’m working on it. Maybe one day I’ll have a full panting breakthrough

        • ashinadash [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
          7·
          2 months ago
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          Waow trouble with vulnerability around sex? I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT THAT’S LIKE omori-manic Tbf I think it’s pretty fine not to horny out on bearsite, unless that’s the goal ( waow-based )